The Pro/Con List, Part One

I need to make a decision, because I am about to drive myself insane with indecision. All day long, thoughts warred in my head- every con to moving was met with a counter thought. I am really starting to worry that my thoughts are going to spin so fast that my head is going to pop off in a whirlwind. Which would not be a pretty sight.
So, here is my pro/con list for anyone who is bored enough to actually read and comment on it. My 'counter thoughts' are in italics.

Pro's to Moving:
-I would be close to my family, which means that I would be able to help out with my grandmother. I would also be close to many other family members.
-My grandfather knows everyone in the area, and most people there have known me since I was a baby. Finding a job would most likely not be a problem.
-Jon's work restrictions make it difficult to find a job- in a small town where everyone knows everyone, I think that people are more understanding of things like that.
-I have dreamed of living in the house my grandfather built on his secondary farm since I was small. If I were to move down there, it looks as though I could live there, on this beautiful farm with tons of fields, ponds and a creek. My old mare lives there amongst the cows, and I bet I could find her a buddy for trail rides!
-And, I could have a big Australian Shepard.
-I would pay my grandfather rent because it is the right thing to do, but probably less than I am paying now, which would mean that I didn't have to work constantly, picking up extra shifts and cleaning on the week-ends, just to pay the bills.
-I have been wanting to go back to school, but lack the flexibility to do so at the moment unless I go to night school, which would be extremely stressful on top of working the schedule I work now. Down there, I may have more flexibility in a schedule because money wouldn't be quite as tight.
-I am desperate for a change!!!

Cons to Moving:
- I would have to quit my current job, which would be so hard. I have never been so valued by a boss before, and I have never been so respected in a work atmosphere. If I left, my boss would be very hurt, and I would hate to do such a thing. Plus, experienced employees are hard to find, and I may never get over the guilt of leaving them high and dry. It would be extremely sad overall.
-While I know a lot of people in my grandparent's town, none of them are my age and I am rather shy about making friends. And I have several friends up here that I love. On the other hand, many of my friends have moved, and I rarely see the ones that are around here because of being so busy. We communicate via phone and e-mail anyway, so how would being three or four hours away change the friendships? When I moved down here, I stayed friends with everyone I moved away from, so this should be no different.
-My family drives me insane the majority of the time, and I like to keep a nice buffer there. While I want to be around them and help out, I do not want people tramping in and out of my home all the time, criticizing everything that I do.
-Where I am now, I have residency and could go to school this fall (although at night while working a ton) and be done with school probably within 1.5 years. If I moved, it would be another year to wait before starting school so that I could establish residency and not spend 5 million dollars on tuition. Yet another delay in my life. On the other hand, with Jon working and living costs down, I might be able to go to school full time and finish in much less time.
-Starting a new job- I hate starting new jobs! Actually, I hate change in general. And I am craving change- what does that say about my sanity??? :)

Ooooh, this is stressing me out!!!! I need to flip a coin, ask a magic eight ball... something! This is too much decision for me at the moment. Heck, maybe I'll leave it in fate's hands- if Big Brown wins the Triple Crown, I stay, anyone else wins the Belmont, I go. Or vice versa.

I'm only half kidding.